laughing matters...

i was reading muddy's blog the other day, "laughing matters" and i came across one part of his entry on the fact that he like to laugh a lot and people often commented on that..

my say on that.. suka hati lah!

my best friends and i dearly loves a laugh..sometimes at just the first word "hello" we'd already started giggling and hence you know the direction of the conversation already :p and believe me, we've got comments like that all time "you like to laugh a lot huh?" or the malay version "u nie suka gelak ek?" or even worse "wats so funny lah?" and they say it like its a bad thing!

what can i say, we are easily amused and over the years we have matured enough to learn to we laugh at ourselves as much as we laugh at other things too and life gets funnier and funnier each day..ruginye if u cant see the funny side of life!

whenever i make new friends i would first judge them on their sense of humour and their ability to judge and separate between the funny and the plain stupidity..and the collection of close friends that i have all shares the outlook at the world as i do and thus we can sit down and have a decent conversation and a good laugh together and those will be some of the simplest and bestest time u have spend together..

i think people who likes to makes this comments are people who dont get it, they dont get the joke or what is it that amuses us to no ends..and that feeling of not being part of the laugh, its pretty sad actually and can be quite intimidating..but dats why u have to go and find yr own group of friends that shares the same views as you do, after all one thing that amuses you may not be amusing to another..dont go and spoil other's people's mirth just because you dont get the joke!

a quote from the great George Bernard Shaw,

"Life does not cease to be funny when people die any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh."

so go on..see something funny today, and laugh till your stomach hurts and tears are rolling down yr cheeks..its the best therapy there is (^_^)

the one with the birthday..

another birthday have gone and by.. i know im about 2 month late overdue in posting this blog but i think deep down inside im in denial about the fact i have already turned 2*! funny how i used to think that when i reached this age i have had certain things in my life and ive reached a certain level in career, love and life..funny how your fast your priorities changes sometimes..the slightest merest nudge could change your life's perspectives with a blink of an eye...

okay..im digressing :p

my birthday this year was celebrated in the great UK, in a tiny little british town called plymouth, why im eloborating on this? it is because its my first birthday away from my family dats why hehe and a birhtday without the seven "bardaques" who have been my best friends for the past 8 years..sigh..

anyway, it was meant to be a small party but turned into a full scale one instead..a firm believer that pictures speaks a thousand words..here are the pics of the party..
(olyn and nell, sorry for the delay hehehe)


the invitation card..thanks pishh :p


MEE CURRY..the main attraction of the day :p


classmates and housemates...


the fav gift..a GUESS watch from two of my fav people.. thanks pish and shuk (^_^)


the three stooges hehehe + mail, me and pish..


kak etonn!! thanks for cooking the CURRY for the MEE :D


the marjon peeps :p


my classmate Claudia gave a watercolor paint of The Plymouth Hoe, gorgeous! thanks babe!

so that should be enough photos to satisfy everyone's requests hehehe

i now have a craving for those MEE CURRY, they were damn delicious! (^_^)

thanks to everyone who came and a million THANKS for all the presents!

everybody is selfish..

my friends have always told me (sometimes harshly and brutal, sometimes in the most subtle way they can) that i always "jaga hati" other people too much..i tend to do whatever that is required and as much as i possible can for people i care about, just to avoid confrontations.. i tend to let people around me walk all over me that it comes to a point i have been taken for granted, that i was expected to do something, just because i agreed for the previous 100 millions times.. sometimes when i actually have the courage to say no, they look at me blankly and go, "wat??" like im speaking in some kind of foreign language..and declared me moody or loony for the day or im in some kind of "bad mood" or that im angry at them or something like that, which generally in turn makes me feel guilty like im such a bad person that i half wished i'd just said yes in the first place..

anyway, i have never ever been described as "selfish" and more often than not i would usually be described as "too nice" or "easily been taken for granted" or something of that sort..

the point of this blog?

something happened in my life in recent months and the decision that i made was completely selfish.. and the lack of guilty feeling was overwhelming and scary and liberating at the same time.. for once i put my happiness first, for once i dont care wat other people think of me, for once i let myself think and feel for only myself.. even though i know wat i did would hurt a certain person that i care about and under normal circumstances, the old me, the previous me would battle this decision and i would not do it and i would end up feeling sad and miserable and i'd ended up hurting so much and i'd be bitterly resentful at the world because yet again i was deprived of the happiness that could have been mine.. and frankly i am sick and tired of feeling that way...

my best friend told me that life is too short for me to worry about other people's happiness all the time and sometimes u have to be a little selfish to get wat u want... wat i fear is that i may be more than a "little" selfish... i think i've gone from caring too much to not caring at all.. why do i always do things to the extreme?

away to Paris (^_^)

shoot the moon..

i know i know..its been a while since ive last blogged, as my dear olyn pointed out to me .."nape dah lama x update??" ..ade banyak benda nak tulis actually nye, too many sampai tak tertulis2 hehehe things are a little hectic since my last blog and im currently in the middle of some urgent dissertation work that needs submitting by next week SO..until that is done (hopefully by this weekend) this blog will be pretty quiet :p

my masters' thesis proves to be a more challenging than i expected it to be, reason being i had to change the scope of the objective to focus on something totally different i.e. i had to focus on the market and economics side of the industry as well :( ive always had reservations when it comes to predicting or investigating finance and market side of a business simply because sometimes it gets a little bit too overwhelming for a technical mind like mine..it requires sheer force and hard core concentration if i were to sit down and study bunker market history for the last 3 years and make a prediction for the next 2..needless to say, im having sleepless nites and the nites that i do sleep. id dreamt of giant money signs and big giants ships chasing me down oxford street huhuhu

okay before i mengarut even further..its 15 minutes to 1pm and i havent even finished a page of these journals yet yikes!

back to work!