im in way over my head

so ive been into the new company for one month and a week now..and after the first three weeks of goyang kaki, the last two weeks have been pretty intense.

what im doing here is totally, TOTALLY different that what i was used too before in the previous company, in this new company, my brains capacity are tested to the limit, in fact beyond the limit actually, due to the fact the said capacity has shrunked considerably in the last few months having doing tedious mind bloggingly boring secretarial work previously.

but i was okay with that.

that's why i moved.

i needed the challenge for fear the longer i did not use my brains, the more stupid i will become and hence eventually i will be forced to get married to any Tom, Dick or Harry (or in this case, any Ali, Arumugam or Ah Chong (being politically correcto)) that knocks on my aunties' door on their relentless pursuit of wanting to be part of "our" family that they dont really care how the leftover daughter looks like as long as they can connect to the "name" accordingly, and being reduced to those trophy housewives types (ecewah mcm lawa sangat haha) and spend the days going to hair salons and spas and looking pretty..of course assuming tho stupid i may be, im still smart enough to marry a rich man :p

but i digress.

this challenge is although welcomed, it is however thoroughly disliked.

a contradiction, i know.

reason being.. the capacity of the challenge here in the new company is basis on FINANCE matter.

yep, the F word.

I HATE FINANCE.

i dont care about the Cost Variance Analysis, or the Profit Margin Thingamajggit or Negative and Positive Exposures or whatever else crap finance jargon you want to throw at me.

UNFORTUNATELY, not only i have to know these "things", i am actually the Custodian of it!

yes!

so u might think, why the hell did i take the job if i knew its going to involve Finance right?

well, there are two reasons behind, the first, i was actually head hunted for a different position, did the interview yadayada, all was set and ready, and upon the submission of my resignation letter, they informed me that they are offering me a different position, at a higher pay, of course..well what a girl's gotta do right? and u know how ballistic my ex-company was when i resigned, u think im gonna go up to them and say, "oops sorry he he, i withdraw my resignation *sheepishly*", suicide right? the second reason was the fact everyone, and i mean everyone says "Nique!! is ****!! only a fool will refuse and offer from ****!!" and, i who actually cares about what other people think of me (to think i should have outgrown it already) do not want to be labelled as a fool; foolishly just accept the offer and pray that i (despite everything) have made the right choice.

the best thing about this job is the exposure (oh lord, i sound like a finance person already) to the actual workings of the business, which is fantastic. everything else about the job is exactly what i want to do. and the F part is not difficult. its not rocket science. i can do the bloody thing.

but, oh i hate it.

guess the hunt isnt over yet.