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i ran into an ex yesterday.

was in monte's bsc waiting for someone when there was a tap on my shoulder.

i turned and there he was, asking "you're nik, right?".

to be honest for a split second i didnt recognise him haha. teruk betul :p he was taller and bigger than i remembered. all my exes are tall, 6ft and above, so dia ni mcm dah grow lg and he was a rugby player, so memang type yg besar dan tinggi, mcm body builder tu, which i totally hate, cos i found body builders' bodies gross euww.

he offered to teman me for a while i waited. he was already sitting at the bar actually when i came in but he was building up courage to come and say hi. weird.

anyway, we had the usual updates.

relationship - him divorced apparently, no kids. married for like a year je. hmm..fickle fickle.
work - he's a pilot now. i remembered when we broke up he was studying to become a pilot, he already had a degree in petroleum engineering but that's what the dad wanted, so once he got his degree, the dad allowed him to pursue his interest. yeah, some people are spoiled that way. if we all could be so lucky.

he mostly talked about himself a lot. he's always been like that.

somehow the conversation veered towards our breakup. he was the one who ended it with me because he couldnt cope with my work life, going away most of the month to offshore or singapore or ports. he wants a gf that is around him 24/7 at his beck and call. he gets really annoyed when i cancelled plans because of work emergencies. we went out for like 3 months before he finally ended it.

he then dated and married this another girl who is constantly demanding attention from him, and expected him to be around her all the time until he couldnt take it anymore and divorced her.

karma, i told him. he agreed.

actually if he didnt break it off with me, i would have.

his low points;
he asks me to "bukak tudung" when he came to visit me in singapore once so that we can go clubbing.
instead of ensure we do our solats when we go out, he said stuff like "ala, kat rumah boleh jamak" or "i malas nak kena basah2 nie, tak suka"
one time i texted him asking wats he's doing, he replied "i tgh tgk porn, u want to watch with me?"
he drove a brand new car and proudly announced "jgn terkejut, i beli kereta ni cash tau" pffft. it was a wira je. and it was his dad's money, not his.
he said "i rasa kalau i kawin nanti i still pegi kut club2 nie sebab ini memang my lifestyle. kita kan orang kl" eh, hello, awak tu orang kuantan born and raised k. kl konon.

so, adakah ini someone you consider as bakal suami????? like seriously! fair enough masa tu tak fikir nak kawin pun but aiyoo! apa punye mentality mamat ni.

i think there's a reason why when i was in a relationship with him, i was the opposite of my usual-in-a-relationship self. im usually the type that is very very 'manja' and needs constant affection and attention (hehe my current bf will testify to this, baru tak dengar suara dua hari dah tak keruan :p) but with him, i didnt call him, i ignored his messages if im busy with work. i happily answered any work calls even tho i out with him. i get irritated when he calls and keeps asking me where i am and when im coming back. i hated it when he wants to hold my hand. actually i dont even know why i went out with him in the first place.

oh wait, i do. i was heartbroken over another guy who didnt like me back, thats why. ok2, i think i can excuse it as temporary insanity haha.

anyway, he left me his card as i saw my appointment approaching. and said "i know yr in a long distance relationship, but there's no harm in having a fling, what he doesnt know wont hurt him" with a wink.

euwww.

when i left the restaurant, i left his card on the table with a note "if yr horny, call this man for free service" next to his hp number.

like i said, karma.