always getting over you

its been a week and a half since my "just friends" and "day four" blog, well not here, its in my Big Yellow Taxi blog (see link :p) and here i am back at square one...

you see, the days have passed quite uneventfully for me, uneventful meaning there wasnt any big emotional drama involving panic attacks or difficulty of breathing or feelings of being nausea (scientific study shows that these symptoms are a sure sign being in love, but i think its also symptoms of a broken heart..hmm i think scientist should just forget about matters of the human heart and focus on monkeys or something, humans are wayy too unpredictable) and efforts have been made to try not think about "him" too much, and i think i did pretty well, considering..

i managed to remember to eat full meals and i did get at least 4 hours of sleep per night (an improvement from none at all, okayyy) and i did have fun going out with friends doing various activities ranging from shopping at ASDA, gogling at the Bread Guy (really cute! kinda looks like "him" actually), lunch dates with some Greeks and Italians (two of the most interesting races i have ever met!) and making plans for my Germany trip in the coming Easter break, and i bought running shoes so that i can expand from just the twice a week kickboxing to some jogging at central park (which is something that "he" has been bugging me to do) and also its my new year resolution to be healthier and not get sick too often (as is the case right now, damn fragile genes).... and so my life is pretty full and i was happily aware that i didnt have to make too much effort not thinking about "him", it comes more naturally now, and i found myself thinking, hey i can do this!

then why does a simple text and email from him was enough to send me right back to where i started?

sure its not his fault that he didnt know that i have decided to let him go, and on top of that, he didnt know that i feel what i felt for him (betul ke nie? :p) so of course he is totally blameless etc etc and so he's off the hook, the bloody bugger..

as for me, well, being a totally hopeless romantic and blessed with the tendency of making soap dramas (award winning mind you :p but soap dramas nevertheless hehehe) out of everything, when something like this happens, it certainly affects the entire little planet that i live in and the surrounding universe alike..

enough said, im being pathetic again..ishkk :(