side effects of durian + root beer + ice lemon tea

i think im too gullible sometimes, senang2 and cepat kesian kat orang lain. not just my close friends and family, but everyday normal people, passer by on the streets, kalau i happen to speak to someone at the pasar mlm while waiting for my putu bambu, and that person started telling me about her 'demam' daughter teringin nak makan putu bambu, i dah start imagine a little girl lying helpless at home, on a bed, with life support, all pale and weak, and her dying wish, just shy of her 10th birthday, was to eat putu bambu cos it reminds her of the days when she was able to walk happily with her late grandmother to pasar malam etc etc (yeahhh..my exaggerated imagination running full blast) and i,

i would be so "oh, kesian nye, ye ke, eh takpelah, kak, biar saya bayarkan, saya belanja kay"..

boleeehhhh?

padahal she drove a bloody mercedes kay, and of course she accepted my offer, tak kira kaya mana, org nak belanja is still free food kan? i could never just simply nodded my head and tsk..tsk.. in sympathy. i have to do everything in the extreme.


so, anyway itu takpelah.

because all these things saya buat dengan ikhlas. kalau tak ikhlas sangat berdosa kan?

but the thing is, its not these little little things that bothered me, its things like this..

a friend, who used to be a very good friend while we were in UK together, 'used to be a very good friend' because, when he returned to malaysia, kembali ke pangkuan jalan, he totally forgot about our friendship and it was like we were never housemates etc etc. anyhooo, he was planning to get engaged to this girl, and wants to get married by end of this year, which is like good for him.

tetapi..

about three months back, sumwhere in may, he told me that their relationship was off. and he was like suddenly all bitter and watnots. i asked wat happen, dia cakap 'dun wanna talk about it, dah malas la ngan bende2 ni semua'..aikss, okaylah, so me being me (read first line above) punye lah kesian kat dia, started to recruit our mutual friends trying to cheer him up. then i made efforts to see him whenever saya turun JB (that's where he lives) and the last i met him was early july, so which is about three weeks ago. i tried to get him to talk to me, yelah, kut2 la saya boleh menolong, ala ala Dr.Phil kan kan (sempat lagik tu :p) and said things like;

"awak cuba lah ckp ngan dia, baik balik" and

"u want me to match make you with someone? i know lots of single attractive women" and

"awak okay tak nie, takpe la just banyak bersabar k, things will work itself out"

and all he said was he doesnt want to think about women now, nak concentrate kerja la, busy la slalu outstation la and takmo ckp pasal the relationship dah..

its over.

three days i ago i received a wedding invitation from him. marrying that girl.

bolehhhhhhh????!!!!!!!!

i have been duped good and proper!

semasa saya begitu concerned and risau tentang kawan saya ni yang konon nye sedang kecewa putus cinta, dan punyelah saya bertungkus lumus untuk konon nye menjadi bahu untuk menangis <'a shoulder to cry on' betul ke translate nie? ntah haha> dia sebenar nye tengah membuat persiapan untuk berkhawin dengan perempuan itu!!

apakah erti nye semua ini?? <ni, tiru chics nie, macam sangat appropriate penggunaan nye, pinjam ek chics :p>


so im stumped yet again. terasa cam sangat bodoh dan dipermain-main kan.

yes, mr sun, i know im being emo.

can someone please explain to me why the hell he did that to me? why why why? apa motif nye? what could you possibly gain from doing that? what?

adakah saya akan pergi ke wedding nya?

maybe.

mungkin saya akan pergi dah saya akan menceritakan kepada bakal isteri nya segalanya2 tentang bakal suami nya itu kerana kami kan dulu housemates jadi tentu nya lah banyakkkkkkk rahsia nye yang saya ketahui muahahahaha "cue evil laughter"

tapi ntah la, mungkin tak pergi kut.

minyak pergi balik JB + tol + hadiah kawin = bengong cos lagi nak spend duit kat orang yang jahat and tak baik and buat saya rasa mcm sangat bodoh kayyyy!!!

adakah ini lesson learned and to be part of "Nique_Naq's Guide To Life's Crap and Here Are The Reasons Why" book?

ntah la. huhu.

note : to my readers, im trying to write in malay k, maaf kalau ade tersilap bahasa dan penggunaan perkataan dan ejaan, pohon sepuluh jari ampun maaf (chewahh macam salam raya laks :p)