sick

im sick again..and am soo tired of it..

i think it kinda started just before i left for the europe trip..what i usually do is take some actifast, sleep on it, ignore it and put it out of my mind. if i refuse to acknowledge that im sick, therefore im not sick. mind over matter kinda thingy.

back from europe, its been a struggle to get up in the morning to go to work. the back aches, the head aches, ive been coughing and sneezing and i think almost every night i sleep with a high temperature.

yes2, with the H1N1 flu going on, i did my routine blood test and all, and the results was negative. but still the sickness persists.

i think what i really need is a week to get really sick, get it out of the way. i think that's the only way i can get better. ive been repressing the fever for almost a month now, like trying to hold down a monster, and its getting impatient now and wants to be let out.

hehe, ok2..maybe that was a little bit over the top description :p

i hope i can get a break soon.

im soo sick and tired of being sick and tired :(