funny world

today i read one this one blog ni. i like her blog, she writes nice and simple stuff. bila baca relax jer, page dia pun tak serabut.

but today she is a very angry blogger. cos another blogger, who is supposedly accordingly to dunno who - is the pioneer of malay blogs and a blogger diva; have said nasty things about her.

aiyoo. tapi pelik lah. kenapa perlu ada status pioneer2 nie? does it matter who started it first? macamana nak keep track pun right? siap boleh gelar diri sendiri diva and all. poyo nya.

i googled her blog tadi (the diva blog) and seriously, i cant understand why is she so famous? nuffnang reward sampai 10k?? seriously??

kalau blogger macam miss pretty ugly (how i miss U!) tu ke, or leen ashburn tu logic la nak famous bagai kan.

seriously, sangat weird macamana dia boleh famous. tak faham la.

ps : nak link ke blog diva tu ke? haha ask me nicely k :p

I will never let my life revolve around another person. First and most importantly, I must put myself first.

I will never let my life be dictated by another person’s actions and requirements. First and most importantly, I must know what I want and what I need and what I can give.

I will never let myself be taken for granted by another person. First and most importantly, I must learn to say NO.

I will never allow myself to be too dependent on another person. First and most importantly, I must own and control my life.
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TRUST. HONESTY.RESPECT.
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If you want me to trust you, show me that you are trustworthy.

If you want me to be believe in you, show me your sincerity.

If you want me to respect you, all I ask is for you to respect me too.
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Life is full choices. Making mistakes is human nature. People deserves second chances.
Whatever.

dont know why..

i bought another black tshirt today when i know i have at least 5 of them, but i never seems to find one in my tshirt drawer whenever i needed one. its like they mysteriously disappear in the washing machine...

the blogs that i do read almost religiously everyday are not listed here in my blog as my favourite blog list. in fact there isnt any indication or link to them, and the way i read them is to open at least two other blogs in order to reach the blog that i wanted read. every single time. i could have bookmarked them but i didnt..

people get offended if i dont like something they like. dont tell me my opinions matters to you because i know it doesnt. i know most people thinks im easy going and usually would go with the crowd on matters, and i admit i usually am, but only when that suits me. when it doesnt, it doesnt, and i will say so...

i keep buying storage boxes and big folder files to organize and keep my things in but they never seemed enough. things are still overflowing everywhere. no matter how much declutter i do, i keep ending up with more stuff. its like they grow, they actually mutated!

im still awake writing this post when i know i have to sleep now as i have an early morning presentation tomorrow :p

hehe goodnight peeps! hope your monday blues tomorrow wont be so bad :p

sense and sensibility

im on leave today.

had some big plans, like revamping up my room, run the usual bank and post office errands, wash my car, dad's and mom's car, go to the salon, get a meni pedi, print out a few CVs and cover letters for some prospective employees, dust open my PhD proposal and revamp that one too.

sounds a lot?

yeap.

so its no surprise i only managed two of the above items!

the rest of the time i was in front of the idiot box watching Kimora Lee and AFC and The Nanny hehe :p

BUT, i did make a very important decision today. something that will have an impact on my life indefinetely. let me try to work on it first before i let it out of the bag ok. cos i know if i start telling people, then i tend to wanna know what you think and then i tend to start swaying towards other's opinion and suggestions, dah la im the kind that i do care what other people think so nanti last2 in the end, my initial goal and idea got lost and i didnt accomplish anything :p

i went to my best friend's lovely new condo on sunday. she has starlights in her living room! super gorgeous and sangat mesmerizing..sigh. i cant wait for my house to complete! alas, i still have a long way to go, it will be at least another two years before its finished.

i end my post today with the recipe for tuna pasta, special request from someone :p

you need;

1 packet of penne pasta
1 can of cream of mushroom soup (i like Campbell, but any brand ok)
1 can of sweet corn
1 or 2 can of tuna flakes in olive oil

how to cook;

1. cook the pasta as usual, make sure you salt the water generously
2. once the pasta is al dente, drain it and put it back into the same pot
3. on low fire, decant the mushroom soup, and add about half a can of the water into the pasta (you can also use milk or cream if you want it to be creamier, but for me water is just nice)
4. once the pasta and the cream of mushroom is thoroughly mixed, decant the tuna (make sure you remove the olive oil first!) and the sweet corn (rinse also)
5. up to you how much tuna and sweet corn u like, i like lots of both, as the tuna tastes yummy with pasta and the corn adds a sweetness and crunchiness :p
6. once its all mixed, add salt and pepper accordingly. usually u hardly need any salt but just taste.
7. serve hot :)

picture is courtesy google image and http://noobchef.wordpress.com (as per printed) as i do not have any pictures taken when i made it yesterday, but this is as close as to how it looks, minus the sweet corns :p

i love this dish, learned it masa study kat UK dulu. its so easy to make and it takes like 10 minutes only! makan while panas2 on a cold chilly day in front of the tv hehe :p and when yr having friends over and there's not much time to cook something big, this is a great treat as its filling and simply yummilicious! :)

Vietnam Part Two - Halong Bay

okey, baru ada mood nak sambung about the trip hari tu hehe (yes2, ive got so many pending trips! the rome one, the barcelona one, nanti2 i will upload ok hehehe), oh this is gonna be FULL of pictures okey, sebab Halong Bay adalah sangat GORGEOUS!

rite, where was i, oh okey, on our second day, we took a trip to Ha Long Bay. the place is about 3 hours drive fron Hanoi city centre. we took a package of USD 105 per person, which includes the return bus, food, lodgings, all tickets and all activities, so i think its pretty reasonable. of course ada pacakge yang cheaper, so its totally up to you, okey :)

this is our bus. we were informed there will only be 10 of us on the bus and on the boat, that suppose to can accomodate up to 40 pax! wuhoo! so we got the boat and the bus to ourselves :) we are 5 and we met up with another 5 foreigners on the bus, they are pretty cool peeps, so it was great :)

the jetty/wharf

our ticket!

the view of the jetty. we have to take on of those small boats to go to our big boat which is anchored about 15 minutes away.

our boat! cantek kaaaaaannnn :)

they are welcoming us hehe :)


our first view of the bay

on deck!

our rooms! nice and cosy kan :)

first activity, we hiked up into the caves, this is the view on top of the caves...

one of the three caves..


temporary captain boat :p eh i can drive one of these okeyyyy...3 yrs of going up and down offshore tanjung pelepas port by boat, we tend to pick up these things, tinggal nak amik lesen jer :p

saya dengan gumbira nye :)

Halong Bay yang breathtakingly GORGEOUS!

the motley crews :)

at night, all the boats will be anchored near each other for the night, so the lights will be on and u can see ships' lights everywhere..

this makcik jual shells..rajin dia susun satu2..i bought one cos kesian anak dia comel sgt..

more views..

oh, we had a cooking class on the boat! belajar buat spring rolls!

tadaaaaaa...inilah hasil nya!

night view

u can watch movie at night on the boat..

attempted to mencadat sotong tapi tak berjaya! :( dapat jellyfish dua hehe

oh view inside the dining room..

OUR FOOD! makan aja dalam boat tu...kebetulan the other 5 pax are also non meat eaters, so all of enjoyed just seafood and vegetarian the whole time..dont be fooled ya, this is only half of the pictures of the food, banyak laaaagi tapi takkan nak letak semua kan hehe.

all in all, we loved our trip to Hanoi, seriously! its wonderful to explore Asian countries pulak and with cheap cost and wonderful weather and lovely people, really, thats the best kind of holiday, and it certainly doesnt get any better than this (^_^)

juggling

susah nya kalau everytime nak keluar with friends kena fikir samada boleh ajak kawan yang ni tak, ke nanti ada yang terasa, ada yang tak suka sebab tgh gaduh dengan yang tu, ada yang dah cakap busy tapi still nak kecik hati bila tak ajak, kena nak fikir nak pergi mana pukul berapa kat mana boleh ajak siapa, kalau ajak seorang saja setakat nak makan dinner sahaja adaaa jugak yang merajuk sebab tak ajak lepas terus tak nak bertegur sapa. apa salah nya sometimes kalau nak keluar berdua saja, just call one friend and that's it. simple kan. no need to make a mountain out of a mole hill. no need to make it a big deal.

takkan setiap kali nak keluar kena jemput SEMUA orang dan nak kena fikir macamni? sometimes you just want to go and have fun without the hassle of having to have to think of all these things yang sangat sangat sangat memenatkan sampai last2 baik duduk rumah sorang2 tengok TV. takkan benda/outing yang kecik macam tgk wayang or lunch or dinner perlu ada jemputan to everyone? takkan itu pun nak kecik hati. takkan nak bersama-sama kumpulan yang sama setiap masa? bukan nya kenduri kawin tak jemput kan....yang tu lain la...

life memang lah suppose to be a big juggling act, but these kind of juggling, sooner or later you will get tired. then what?

im broke but im happy (^_^)

ok dah lah. enough moping around. i just have to deal with my work stress as and when it comes along. who likes their jobs anyway right?

had a long heart to heart session with the babes, and i am finally brave enough to say, im not that ambitious. really. i am perfectly happy earning a reasonably good salary from which i can afford my own house, my own car and my life, i can afford the occasional travel, and if i want something a little bit more extra, i know all i have to do save a bit and i know i will be to get it, and that is enough for me.

if there's one thing this past week taught me about myself, i know im smart enough and i can do the job and i know i can the handle the responsibility and not only that i did it so well its looks to be a permanent part of my work, they are so bloody impressed. but is it worth it? is it worth the stress, the anger and the tears? bloody hell no, so there, as long as i know im refusing this role not because i cant do it, its because i chose not to. i think its the most grown up decision ive ever made :)

so i may never be super rich, i may never be a CEO of my own company or be well known in the industry as an icon or a mentor or a famous person. i may not be able to afford a dozens LV and goes to the spa every other weekend and owns fancy cars (god knows when i can afford that lovely Murano), i certainly will never be able to travel in a luxurious jet or first class and stay in 5 stars hotels and only go around in limos and private tours and probably, most importantly i may never be able to pass down my richness and my empire to my children's grandchildrens (chewaahh, i watch too many malay soap opera :p) so that they can have anything their heart's desire.

BUT...

i know i have lovely friends and family, who will always be there for me, my love who will always take care of me, a car that gets me places with a good air conditioning and a workable stereo so that i can sing on my way to work every morning, i have my own property of which i will have a gorgeous time fixing it up with my love, slowly but surely making it my dream home, and i am perfectly happy with my current mix of funky bags and stuff from everywhere i have travelled that i would never trade an LV for and most importantly for as long as i lived, i know i can travel anywhere i want, and that the more i work and saved for it, the more i would treasure the experience more, the more independent and confident i will become, i have made many new friends and have had so many wonderful cultural exchanges, simply by travelling like the locals do and staying where the locals are and those are things you can get money can never buy, and that is something i can pass on and that would have been greater than any richness kan?

so goodnight everyone, be good, be blessed and hope you have the sweetest dreams :)

mimpi yang sempurna

I have submitted my resignation letter and have accepted a post with an international shipping company based in Amsterdam. The new company have agreed to fully sponsor my PhD in the UK for three years in Shipping and Logistics and from there, the PhD proposal will be based on the company’s latest project in several parts of Europe, a project that I will be heading upon completion of my studies. I have exactly one month to prepare for everything before leaving for Amsterdam!

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That’s because its NOT.

Though that would have been THE perfect dream, right?

Sigh.

 

Yes, im still here. Same company. Same job. Same *Hell.

Thank you everyone for your comments for my post below. I wish I could disclose here what really happened, but without revealing some confidential information, it would have been too confusing too understand. And I think, even if I did tell you what really happened, there’s bound to be some who would make annoying remarks such as “the stress/workload is equivalent to the pay and the company’s reputation” – something that is true, but something that I really really am not interested to hear. I do know that ok. I have been in the oil & gas industry long enough to know that very very well.  Am some will probably even make an even more annoying comments like “quit, then get married la, sit at home and be a housewife”. I can’t deal with such lowly crude and ridiculously stupid mindless brain numbing comments so again, I hope you truly understand if I just say I really thank you for your concerns and I am better now and that I have a plan.

Yes I do.

Pray for me ok?

enough

Today for the first time in my working life, i felt like giving up and i felt like quitting.

And i’m not a quitter.

Ive had share of terrible bosses, who makes me cry every other week, who calls me up at 6am every morning for an update about the previous shipment, who yells and screams and shouts to your face just because, who doesn’t think your capable just because you’re a Malaysian muslim girl with a veil, who look for every opportunity to use your ideas and your reports and passed it off as his – to name a few.

ive had my share of nightmarish working time, 24 hours operations yes, going back home at 10pm only to come in again at 2am due to an operations emergency, to get waken up every hour in the middle of the night due to product and vessel issues, to get my leave cancelled and my tickets burned just like that, to walk out on friends, family and loved ones during dinners, meeting, dates and even on hari raya. To spend new year, xmas eve, independence day offshore just because they fall on the month end.

Ive had my share of lousy pay, being paid in cash, with no deduction to epf or anything, to get paid two months late because the company has lack of funds, to travel to jb or spore for work but not able to claim any money so everything on your own expenses.

But never once, i gave up.

Never once i said, this is it, enough.

And i have never actually felt physically and violently ill and literary throwing up my guts out in office bathroom due to sheer frustration, stress and amazing hatred to work and some of my co-workers.

 

They say there’s a first time for everything.

I hate it when they are right.

So what im to do now? Really resign? Really quit? Really?

 

of weddings and engangements - part 1

this is an overdue post - saving it for a day that i do not know what to write about and on days pictures says a thousand words..

*yes2, im aware the Halong Bay post is suppose to next but am waiting for pictures from my travel mates, i assure u its worth the wait as she was using the SLR camera most professionally :p

moving on, one of dearest frend got married on christmas day (yes, it was THAT overdue hehe) and we drove all the Ipoh for the wedding, and came back on the same day! but it was well worth it. she, and her twin, has been one of my best friends since Ausmat days! that was exactly 11 years worth of friendship! lama kan :) so here are the pictures :)

the gorgeous pelamin at Casuarina Park Royal Hotel, Ipoh Perak

testing my new camera hehehe

me and huda, my faithful date and partner in crime heheeh :p

the gorgeous bride Nana, and her twin sister, Didie as the pengapit :)

the favours -nice and simple kan?

posing and ambik berkat depan pelamin, amin :p

me and the blushing bride! Nana was gorgeous as always! :)